OMG

OMGGGGGG!!!...my friend just got together with the guy she likes...OMG!!!...
that's like OMG...!!!and OMG!!!...she was so upset tht she believed tht it's IMPOSSIBLE for them to get together..and OMG!!!..they r TOGETHER...!!!OMG!!!
im happy for her...she must be the happiest girl in the world...OMG!!!...

Boring...!!!

Today is so boring...so decided to put up a new post...
Today is 23rd june..means wad?..YES!!! EXAM IS IN 2DAYS TIME!!! OMG...!!!
I'm really sick of studying n i deserve a longgggggggggg holiday...well i noe tht's impossible...lolz
Sick of reading Comp theory book about all malware,phishing,bitmap and vector images, file infector;boot sector;macro;hoax virus...ARGHHHHH....but no choice...it will be examined...*faint*...
Haiz...i feel so tired nowadays...stay up late till midnite(most of the time ended up with playing comp...lolz)...but i do study...so not to worry....but i really don mind...coz.........IM GOING BACK TO MY HOMETOWN...!!!!omg...finally i can feel how good it is to stay in UR OWN house...yeah u can do wadever u want...YAY!!!
i cant wait to go back..i want to see sheilla badly....OMG...i miss her so much...but sad...my home-trip now is to celebrate farewell with lotsa ppl...they've graduated n some r going to other city to study (still in Indo)...come going overseas (mostly KL...so may consider going there too...lolz...but still i have my preferred choice...)...and one of my best friend..going to California...Huh...toking abt him..im so disappointed...something's wrong with him..he ignored me...he even deleted my comment on FS...maybe he just doesnt want his x-and-now-ge-together-again-after-a-big-fight girlfriend...it's just too much...NVM!!!i don care...i just hate the people who will abandon friends bcoz of girl/boy friend....chee
Sheilla my honey bunny wait for me..im coming..lolz...(she just misses me a lot...)...im going to book u all the days till day u're leaving for KL...sad case..!!!n yeah...jessica...i wont abandon u...just get settled down here...i'll be back on 7th...and u're booked on 8th...
well im gonna need a singapore road map to take u arnd...since ive got lost for few times...(lolz)...maybe i can show u how to go to temasek poly from my house...lolz....
Haiz..today's so boring...nothing else to do but study and study...oyeah..again...i can play neopets...lolz....

*ciao*

Love and Being loved

"Keep love in your heart.
A life without it is like a sunlessgarden when the flowers are dead.
The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and
a richness to lifethat nothing else can bring."
"Who, being loved, is poor?"

-Oscar Wilde-

Science of love

"How on earth are you ever going to explain
in terms of chemistry and physics
so important a biological phenomenon as
first love?"

When ur kindness is misunderstood...

(translated from hokkien and indonesian)
at the hawker centre...

Old ama : tissue...tissue...(selling tissues and carrying a huge bag of tissue, approaching a
table)

Husband : don want....don want...don want...thnx...!!!

Wife : daddy,pity her la...buy tissue, however we oso need it...(taking $1 out)
Aunty aunty...tissue...!!!

Me : (still eating and looking)...Haiz...pity her...she's old...

Wife : Yeah...i don think she has any realtives here...!!!

(Old ama left, husband went to a shop nearby, left with the wife and me)

Me : Haiz...pity her...nobody wants to buy her tissues

Wife : Yeah la...she looks so sad...and people were like ignoring her...

Me : Let's buy more from her then...

Wife : (taking out $10)...don buy the tissue...buy the 4d (toto)...

Me : But i dunno how to say ler....

Wife : Just say u wnt to buy a piece of the thing...

Me : (with the money)...Aunty aunty...i want to buy that one...
Old ama : Ha??

Me : One piece...that one...yeah that one...one piece...(give her the $10)

Old ama : One piece $2.80....one piece $2.80 (still holding my money and looking for small
change inside her bag)...you have small change?

Me : (digging pocket and found $5 and gave it to her and my $10 is still with her)

Old ama : (still holding my money)...ok a...i give u change $2...thank you!!

Me : (a bit lost)

Wife : Where's ur $10?

Old ama : (still there and keeping the money)

Me : (realised tht the money is still with her)

Wife : Eh aunty a...our $10 le?

Old ama : (just shout) WHAT $10...?THIS IS MY MONEY LE...WHAT $10...MINE LE...

Wife : Just now we passed u the 10 and the $5

Me : (pointing at the $10)...yeah...that one is mine...!!!

Old ama : WHAT URS?I TOOK OUT FROM MY BAG...JUST NOW WAS LOOKING FOR
IT!!!WAD URS?MINE!!!

Wife : WALAU E...PEOPLE SO KIND WANT TO HELP U THEN U'RE LIKE THIS...!!!
GIVE THE $10 BACK!!!

Me : Yeah..that one is mine....that one is mine...!!!

Old ama : CANNOT BE LA...I TOOK OUT FROM MY BAG WHEN I WAS LOOKING FOR
SMALL CHANGE..cannot be yours!!...(thinking)...oh yours is it? I dunno mahh..

Wife : YOU DUNNO THEN U WANT TO SHOUT AT ME...PEOPLE ARE NICE HELP U
BUY YOUR THINGS THEN U'RE LIKE THIS...

Old ama : (confusely passed the money back to me)...I DIDNT KNOW MA!!!

Wife : (talking to me)...you took the money already?...let's go!!!

this is so embarrassing...shouting at public place...!!!

Love and Time

Time is too slow for those who wait,

too swift for those who fear,

too long for those who grieve,

too short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love,

time is eternity.

confession

ok...previous post was just a mistake...i used swear word...well eventhough it is not a swear word...but it means it...
i promise tht will be my first n last time to scold tht way...coz i was really annoyed...
n yeah...i wont....since there r few ppl came to me and said like..."OMG...u swear..."/"u start to sound like me.bad influence"/"some ppl is stressed out"/"now u start to use vulgarities"/"unbelievable"/
okok...enough...back to the real me...lolz...

11.11 pm

Haiz...staying up late again...it's all because of exam...exam...exam...
feel so bored...so put up another post again...
i feel so tired...keep studying..studying and studying...
huh...have been sitting on this chair for like few hours since this morning...
just had excuse to get up to eat lunch...pee...shower...drink...poo-poo...and look out to the window in my room...(which is just a strecthing...)!!!
OF COZ i do need stretching...or else my butt will turn to be a square ass...n i don want tht to happen...and now...
still sitting on the same chair...having book on my right hand side...and laptop in front of me...is tht we called as revising?hahaha..i doubt so...
feel like going to sleep (*lookingatmybedwithsadface*)...but...let me finish 1more tut then i'll play neopets for a while then sleep....
OMG...toking abt my neopets...my pet, "pee-pee" (wad a wierd name?), is so lucky to be mastered by me...lolz...lately i bought her bicycle...then scooter...then saxophone...hahaha....tht's just to make her happy...but abt the food...she just has a veggie sausage...wad a pity on her...
but at least i fed her till she's very bloated...
ok...it's just too kiddish...hahaha...but i need it to destress my mind from studying studying studying and revising, revising, and revising, for tht farking exam, exam, and exam...!!!

*luv ya pee-pee*

Diamonds in my dream

On and on, the hours tick away
So the memories can go astray
Oh, how I miss the days of golden sun
And please,I'd rather be with you
I still remember the days
When we had long long time to share
Until I saw you there
Not as tired as I used to feel
Hello I said unsurly
You smiled a little shyly
Soon we knew we would go on
Together on a journey to our dreams

True feeling

np ya hidup itu susah banget?selalu aja ada keluhan...baik jiwa maupun raga...
tiba2 aja kepikir...napa gk jadi org gila aja ya??jadi gk bakal banyak pikiran...mau gmnpun terserah..gk ada yg bakal peduliin...lagi senang ya...senang ndiri...kyknya org gila gk pernah sedih tuh....happy2 aja bawaannya....

hari ini lg pengen aja post pake bhs indo...pngn bnr2 ekspresikan apa yg g rasain...
g ngerasa dunia itu gk adil...emank si pikiran itu salah...mana mungkin selalu dapetin apa yg kita mau...itu namanya rakus...
dan parahnya....kadang kalo kita lagi bener2 menginginkan suatu barang..ada aja halangannya...n malah bakal di rebut org...
tentu aja si kita gk bisa maksa barang itu buat jadi pny kita...barang itu ndiri pny hak n kemauan...apa dia mau jadi punya kita...
ide ini masuk akal banget buat g....

g capek banget dgn keadaan sekitar...situasi rumah yg gk mendukung...buat g gk bebas kalo dirumah....skolah jg sama...biarpun itu satu2nya tmpt g bisa cari kesenangan selain dirumah...
mgkn seharusnya g gk datang ke spore...gk seharusnya g disini...apa hidup g bakal lebi bagus kalo g ditempat lain??
masalah skola...g gk cocok aja style bljrnya org2 spore...bisa dibilang mrk itu pesaing...bkn hanya ttg skola...dr segala segi kehidupan mrk itu gk bisa lepas dr gaya hidup mrk...mgkn mrk mank dilahirkan buat jadi gitu....
mank gk cocok d ma g...g jadi ngerasa tertekan...seakan2 kita semua pada lagi berlomba buat jadi yg paling baik...saingan si okok aja...tp jangan berlebihan...soalnya kalo pas kalah...sakit hati banget jadinya...
tp g gk ada pilihan..g berada disekitar mrk..mau gk mau g jg usaha buat nunjukin yg terbaik dr diri g....n kadang itu buat g capek n g jadi tertanya2....apa g musti kyk gini?

haiz....untung aja...cobaan ini bakal g alami buat 1thn...soalnya g da pasti ini thn pertama n trakhir g disingapore...bisa dibilang g mank gk ada jodoh ma kota ini...
g kangen sama masa2 g dikuching dulu...biarpun rata2 tmn g org indo... gk nyesel...g tetap ada kemajuan dipelajaran g...satu2nya yg g gk kesali itu...g dpt banyak tmn baik...tmn yg bnr2 baik...bukan sekedar tmn biasa yg kita asal sebut teman baik...
terutama shelli,callista,jessica,sheilla,faustine...biarpun dr asalnya kita terpecah2...tengkar sana sini...tp akhirnya kami jadi 1...grup yg utuh...mgkn krn latar blkg kita sama...sama2 keputusan sendiri buat skola ke kuching...sama2 pernah nyesal krn skola disitu...punya pandangan yg sama ttg pendidikan n masa depan...biarpun sifat kita ber6 semua beda...tapi akhirnya kita jadi bisa saling ngertiin satu sama lain...hahh...jadi kangen masa lalu....
tp waktu tetap berjalan...akhirnya kita dipisahkan lagi...stelah tamat semua pergi ke uni yg beda...biarpun ada yg 1negara...tetap aja bakal susah ketemu...gk kyk dulu lagi...keskola ketemu...plg skola ketemu..weekend keluar ..jg bareng...skrg...cuma bisa sms...ma email...g gk puas banget...serakah ya?
1lagi yg tertinggal...yg g anggap bagian dr hidup g...chika...adek kelas g...yg tgl bareng ma g...dr "hi..hi"an di msn...ampe pny bahasa planet yg org lain gk ngertiin...
kita akhirnya jadi deket banget waktu tinggal bareng...banyak banget d yg kita lewatin...dirumah gk bakal sepi...krn kita ber2 terus...napa2in juga sama2 buat...hahaha...banyak kejadian lucu juga...
n skrg...g disni...gk ada mrk lagi...g jgua da berbaur ma group baru...tp...g masi blm bisa nemuin org2 yg sama kyk mrk...tuhan itu ajaib ya....

tahun ini bnr2 pelajaran buat g...mungkin g da banyak dosa kali ya ditahun2 sebelumnya...hahahha....moga2 thn dpn bakal lebi indah lagi...n g harap gk bakal ninggalin kesan buruk di thn ini....lolz....

*lanjut bljr*

people's mind

if i am to be reborn...i would like to have the ability to read people's mind...
somehow i remember about the essay i wrote 2years ago when i was still in secondary level...
yeah...why not?...isnt tht gud? if i could do so...
i will have less ambiguity in my life...i'm tired to keep guessing wad people think and the purpose of it...if i could do so...i would noe whether a person is saying the truth, wad's in people's mind...

exam's distraction

well...i noe tht exam is coming SOON...!! but i find tht internet...is really a distraction for me...i hate internet at this stage though im having a gud time playing with it (*laughing*)...
but hello....it's exam...only left with a week of study week...
im fully awake when i type this...but...words are just words...they are not meant to be an action...i suggest the world shld just shut down all the internet networks during exam seasons...i think i will benefit a lot if it's done...maybe when i grow up later...i can suggest this to whoever in charge of internet in this world...
ok..it's just too impossible...but...still...internet is so distracting...and peeps...please...im having EXAM SOON...cant u guys just ignore me?...im referring to those friends in indonesia....yeah i noe...ur exam is finished...*yay*...but *arghh*...
but seriously...i don want to be ignored...( u guys can continue talking to me... )...im fine....huahauhauhauha.....it's just so lame...!!!

This is my now

There was a time, I packed my dreams away
Livin in a shell, hiding from myself
There was a time, when i was so afraid
I thought I'd reached the end, baby that was then
I am made of more then my yesterdays

This is my now

And I am breathing in the moment
As I look around I can't believe the love I see
My fears behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then

This is my now

I had to decide, was I gonna play it safe
Well but somewhere deep inside, I tried to turn the tide
And find the strength to take that step of faith
And I have a courage, like never before
I settled for less, but I'm ready for more
Ready for more

This is my now


*currently in love with jordin sparks*