i miss u...

by:nicky

feeling insecure...

i have no idea wad im feeling now and wad im worrying abt...
it's just too many till im so confused...
just scared...so scared as scary as if im close to death...yeah i was close to it be4...april 2006...
if both of my hands were not strong enough to hold on...tht wooden stick...might have just.........
well, tht's just a past...but now...tht fear comes again...
fear of failing, losing, and everything...
i dont want to lose a precious thing of my life...
i dont want to fail before i have had enough tries...
it just feels so unsecure...

Mistake mistake...

omg...i saw my result wrongly...my math only B...sad....!!!
and i got a bad news today...my english...even i got B+....the breakdown for each section is awful..i was saved coz of my writing, report, and journal...omg....!!! my reading and listening is hopeless...!!!!!!!
im so easily get pissed nowadays...so yeah..i dunno wad happen...
if something pisses me off...i'll just keep quite...so..will b seen like...as if i'm lost...
but it's just temporary...if something gud happens...or like..something funny or...somebody tries to tok to me...then..it'll b better....lol...wad a human....
omg...another work is coming..SEMINAR PRESENTATION>>!!!!
this sem2....we all get to do endless works...sounds like endless rain..haha....
get tired easily too...dunno why...
*sad**gloomy*

Exam's results

it's out and yeah i saw it just now...
was so afraid i will do badly...i predicted tht i will get GPA around 6 or above but i got more than wad i expected...(thnx God!!)

here is my results...

Academic English = B+
Chemistry = B
Computing (theory) = A
Computing (practical) = A+
Math = A
Physics = C

then my total GPA = 8.0
was happy abt tht...but kinda worried since Melb U's minimum entry is 8.5, but nvm..i'll work harder...gud start!!!lol..praising myself...
and for this...i owe meishan lunch....(sighhhh!!!)...she shld be rejoicing now...lol

Too good to be true

Perfect life is too perfect to be had...
Born in a happy family is too happy to be a true...
Smooth life journey is too smooth to be stepped...
Good relations are too good to be had...
True beliefs are too true to be believed...
Bright future is too bright to be seen from now...

so wad should i do?

Cancer

Cancer - Does it in the Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations, especially with your mom. Not a fighter, but capable of knocking your lights out.

not sure if those are true...lolz...but one thing which is 100% true...im unpredictable...sumtimes...i dun even noe wad im doing..wad im thinking...so blur...lolz....

My 18th B'dae

im now 18..lolz...feel so old...nope nope..im still young....lolzzz...anw..thnx for ALL the greetings and wishes u guys gave to me before/on/after my b'dae...those are very meaningful to me...im so touched...and thnx so much for the b'dae present...thnx a lot...luv u ppl...*muachhhh*

Holiday...(it's over...TT)

the very short holiday is over...now...sem2 is started and time to work hard lolz...
well, holiday was fun...i got to experience being a single child...coz my bro wasnt in indonesia and my sis went to Bali. the feeling was great...but soon my sis came back...lol...no more fun...but still...she was always out...
my dream was fulfilled...i had been asking my dad to have dinner at italian steak house (my favourite....OMG...the steamboat was scrumptious...)...but i wanted it to be on my birthday...we went 2days before it...sad...lol...
and a gud news is..my old maid(worked with us since i wasnt even born yet)...got married...so i went to the wedding....she's like my 2nd mom...she took care of me since i was born...
i also met my old old old friend (he's not really my friend..lol...)...he came for a chit chat n yeah..he changed...more mature...and working while studying too...gud one...young boss...
i didnt actually do much in indonesia...but i did enjoy the feeling of being in my OWN house...lolz...since im not in my own house here...lolz...
and come to my birthday...i had family dinner and cut cake tht nite...quite a quiet dinner...lolz...then the next day i came back to singapore...again...sad case...